Showing posts with label #let's talk about travel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #let's talk about travel. Show all posts

Monday, 23 November 2020

To the end of the world & back [because we always go back]


Seeing that blogger changed some of its interface I thought I better post the thing I wrote a while ago before my computer breaks down as it is probably coming to the end of the western world as we know it

 

As much as I complain about travelling being overhyped, I still spend quite some time on it. Well, don’t get me wrong, tourism is overhyped. The way we approach it as spiritual journeys when all we do is laze around in some hotel and forget we have to go to work or make a living at all is just boasting. But it does not mean that there is not some trips, or some encounters that do give our life meaning or a different perspective.

There is two trips I remember as changing my view on life, what’s interesting is both were in 2018: one was in April 2018 when hitch-hiked from Tokyo to Nagoya with a newly-made friend and another was May 2018 to Malaysia.

The reason why Malaysia in 2018 was a special trip for me, was, well, for once, it was Borneo. I had thought a long time about going there. I remember hearing about Borneo during my studies and being incredibly fascinated by it. The whole trip felt a bit off to me.

 

First of all, when I was going to Kota Kinabalu from Bangkok, my connecting flight from Kuala Lumpur was severely delayed and I had to wait more than 6 hours from what I remember. The next flight I could catch was packed (pretty sure the prior one was cancelled because almost not one was on the plane) - and I immediately fell asleep and couldn’t even get a decent view from the outside.

 

Tiga Island (I think), a day trip from Kota Kinabalu

As you see this is the proof that you can sell dirt to tourists, you just need to know how.


Flying to Sandakan was also strange, we were not allowed to have our phone on during the flight, which is why I could not take pictures of the beautiful view outside. I remember it as the most beautiful rain forest I have ever seen - but I can’t remember it in detail to be honest. This is why we take pictures and why they are so important to us, I suppose. We want to be reminded of that feeling we had.

 

Sandakan/Sepilok had a very strange vibe on its own. I could almost not get home at night from the Rainforest Conservation Centre - somehow it had gotten too late. But I was lucky and could catch a Grab (Asian Uber/Lyft). Walking through the forest itself was strange, I felt like I was mostly alone, though there were some people, at night there was almost no one.

 


Rainforest Conservation Centre

Walking through the streets felt weird, by chance I met two girls who were on the Jungle Photo-Safari Trip with me (I don’t even remember what it was called: we were in a jungle lodge and then on a boat in the river from which we took pictures of animals - also weird. First almost no one talked to me and then when I gave up on make up, they were all greeting me from the morning).

Either way the two girls said why don’t we check out the rooftop bar? It was in a hotel and quite nice but the hotel was also spookily empty. I had to call my hostel for them to let me inside at night because they would lock an iron gate in front of the regular door, and I had to ask them to let me inside later when I rang the bell.

 

We went „home“ each to their place shorty after midnight. The vibe was extremely strange, everything was closed early and the people who watched you were somehow not giving off a very friendly vibe - maybe curious, but not exactly friendly.

Later I found out tourists in this area had been abducted. Ah yes, typically me, I wouldn’t even that kind of thing unless someone in particular told me about it. I thought the double-locking (the iron gate) was just how things work here and it was somewhat interesting to me.

 

The constant possibility of „danger“ actually gave me a thrill on its own. But, the empty cities at night were also not very exciting in a way (of course on the other hand, they were). I got to know a Brazilian girl in the hostel and we watched a movie; one with Keanu Reeves (I swear his movies follow me on my travels for some reason) which was quite explicit and she did not seem to like it. The other one was fantasy which I did not like very much.

 

We had our flight to Kuala Lumpur the same day and the same time, that’s for some coincidence (no, probably just not a whole lot of flights). When I trying to get up from the seat on the plane, something was pulling me back down and I had a strange feeling in my stomach at that. It was the strap of my backpack that had slung under the seat’s arm rest. As I realized it, I undid the entanglement and went on.

 

In the hostel I was immediately greeted by a Philipino guy who said he was working there (which was a lie), and then I met two of the people again that I knew from the one day visit to Kuala Lumpur I made before: the hostel manager and a guy from Johor who had been staying in the hostel for quite some time. It was such a relaxed atmosphere, I still miss it.


These were both taken the night my phone got stolen

 

So, what made the trip special was that. And, the fact that I got my backpack stolen at night. Me being me I went out really late at night (11?) through the markets, to some bar, then around in the streets with someone, then back to the market close to the hostel, then back to the hostel - where they ripped my backpack off my shoulders on the motorcycle. The hostel manager was so kind - she heard me scream and ran out of the hostel and around the corner: she knew the motorcycle would take a longer turn around the road so she could possibly catch him running in the backstreet to cut him off, but it was too late. She later said that wanted to throw the broom she was carrying in front of the motorcycle haha. Also, that she knew the instant I screamed that something important was taken from me. She went so far as to ask me to get in the car with her and go after them to maybe see if they had thrown out my backpack somewhere and only taken the things of monetary value. And all the aftermath of that, she and the other guy that was staying at the hostel helped me so much that I was honestly do not even know how to ever repay that karma-wise. But I suppose I will get enough chances.

 

The interesting part was that I couldn’t sleep and eat much during that time but as I finally fell asleep, and then woke up after a few hours in the afternoon, I noticed a sudden downpour and the rain looked so.... amazing. Watching the rain outside through my hostel bed was such a ... humbling experience. I cannot explain in words how beautiful and real and refreshing it felt just to be in the moment and watch and feel what was happening. It put me back to earth. And I could not even take a picture of it but I remember I felt truly, really free. Free from most technology, free from money, free from worries. I started to wonder if that is what homeless people feel like. Is that why so many of them seem so happy?

 

My parents scoff at me when I say it was a truly freeing and good experience to have my things stolen - probably everyone would, if they had to send me money and take care of things for me. But it was. I am also very lucky and happy to have my dear friends Susi and Tina who helped me as I contacted them in this difficult time, and Susi even came to meet me at the Frankfurt airport so that I, in case I could not get any money through exchanging it, was able to borrow some from her and get back home by train with it.

Overall it was a very special experience I am thankful for, and I am most thankful for all the kind people that inhabit this earth and make it a better place for everyone.


By the way the hostel that I stayed at in Kuala Lumpur is called Paper Plane hostel. I remember it because they also had a restaurant/cafe called VCR next to it which had the best turkish eggs and a great view outside. Gosh I miss this! I am in no way paid for this review, I am mentioning it because this is all a true story.


Wednesday, 11 September 2019

travel is but a mirror - do you really need to look at yourself that many times?

Readers! Do you know what I am currently doing (of course besides writing this blog, haha, yes that was so funny)?
I am doing what I wanted to do for a long time. I am doing what I painfully regretted not yet having done while in Vietnam. I had so much to do in Vietnam that I suddenly remembered all the things I wanted to do. Okay, to be honest, I kind of also wanted to do what I did in Vietnam but... it turned out different than what I expected it to be and with much less free time in a day.
Right now what I am doing is writing a book. The idea came to me in just a random moment. I had random (tv and video game) inspirations and I just started getting them down. And now I push myself to keep it going. It’s an idea. It’s a start. But most of all, it is doing something that I was meant to do.

 Kabukicho is still my bitch no matter what & I felt like a queen staying in a hotel with this view on it

Funny story, I wanted to go for a trip to the US this summer and I saved September for it. Originally I thought I could go even in August but then I did not manage to finish writing my paper early enough to leave early.
September comes around and I am doubting myself. Then I am like - hey whatever. Let’s get the visa and make it happen. There I go, get my visa (well that ESTA thing anyway), want to book hostel and flight and realize my bank account is locked and I might not be able to access my credit card. Fast forward some phone calls, some more IT problems and me having to write a letter to get the account unlocked again, it takes more than a week to unlock it again.
Even though I reserved the hostel, I decided to use the free cancellation option. The fact that I was not 100% sure I could use my credit card (when I know I need it), already stressed me out. What’s more, I had asked friends to meet me where I go - big mistake, sorry friends. The thing is I try to please my friends and often (though not with all of them) end up not having fun myself when I please them. And then when I don’t please them, usually it’s hard to agree with anything with me (because damn, I am a loner and I need a lot of time doing stuff alone for some reason. Or doing the things I want to do. But some things, really, I need to do alone).

I felt autonomy slipping through my fingers. What’s more, I hated the idea of cramming sight-seeting with friends and running around like a chicken with its head cut off for several days around a place that I would hardly get to know because - let’s face it, if you go to places alone, you notice your surroundings way more. Please do not take it personally my friends, it’s just a loner travel thing.

But when I thought of going alone to the US, I still did not feel it. First of all two weeks seemed the longest I could go. This is my last long break and I could go one month if I really really wanted to. But doubts clouded my way. And I started to feel I would get bored over there.
I will be honest: home is the only place where I do not get bored. I love home. But travels? I usually get bored. Unless I am staying in a hotel. But then I don’t really travel, I just stay in a relaxing hotel far away from home and pay a lot for it.
That’s what happened with Japan. To be honest, coming back to Japan felt like coming back home. I don’t know why. Some things seemed to annoying in the beginning ... but eventually, it’s always like coming back home. Japan is home to me, probably because I came there first almost 10 years ago and stayed so many times and always so long. Tokyo is my home. The people all seem familiar. Just as when I come back to Germany.



       



Shirahama beach in Shimoda, Japan, where I went for a day trip

They say eat sushi when you are at the beach but I really had to recover from this one. The assortment was not for me.







I was only two weeks in Tokyo this summer (August), and even that felt extremely short. But then again, Vietnam felt short too (and exhausting).

I remember when I was in LA last year. It was new to me and I honestly liked some of the encounters I made. The encounters seem really worth it. But I was there only for a week and somehow I really really wish I would have stayed longer. Even two weeks do not cut it.


Only got instagram pictures fromLA because on a trip to Malaysia in May 2019 my phone was stolen (photos lost)

In many ways though, LA felt like Germany. The people I met were spectacular - but the feeling was at times very European or German. All the stores seemed the same, the food was similar (only worse) and without the people it all did not seem so great. And if I don’t want to go for the place, it only makes sense to stay longer. I still dream of staying at least 3 weeks over there.... but with my scheduel right now and me being lazy to do the study work I have to do, I am not sure if and when I will make it. But as I once gave as an advice here: do not fear time. Keep looking at your goals.

As for travel itself, doesn’t it feel super overrated? I read all these people feel so inspired by travelling but I have yet to find a person who painted a great painting or wrote a book worth reading about their travels.
Do you know what the most awesome book about travels is that I read? Gulliver’s Travels by Jonathan Swift. And that man did not even travel!
Gaugin? Remember when he went to Polynesia and all the paintings he did were mainly of the Polynesia he imagined and not the colonalized he lived in? Yeah. Poor dude, didn’t have to got there and die in the end, he just had to use his mental images and paint.

Now Steve Jobs got inspired when travelling. Oh hell yeah, that makes a lot of sense to me because commercial travel goes hand in hand with ideas for commercial business. But where’s the art in that?
I have never heard of anyone doing anything inspiring or great art or anything to ease the Weltschmerz because of their travel experiences. But please, prove me wrong. Maybe I am just trying to prove myself right here for cancelling the trip and there is people who got inspired by travel to do something big and meaningful. But people like the Dalai Lamah, Gandhi, or Martin Luther King? Or Jesus? You can answer that question yourself.

To be honest, being home feels better than any trip I think. I haven’t felt good on most trips for the past few years. I kept pushing myself out of my comfort zone but even when I was out of my comfort zone, most of the time (70-80%) I thought I would rather be home because life is not so much different there (still very happy for the great encounters in the US though).
We all long for something, but all that travel can do is make us look in the mirror to see if we are all dolled up for nothing. Do you really need to stare into that mirror again? Do you really have to constantly check your looks that much? Don’t you think it’s time to focus on something more real than commercial travel? (Again, maybe I am only telling myself that.)

Can we stop making it look like travel is the path to enlightment and self-finding? Because it can be, in a Siddhartha way, but you gotta do much much more than just travel. And you will have to make it much less commercial and more conneted to yourself. While, you see, I usually get stressed out by my outer world to do and experience things too much to actually sit down and work on myself while I travel. So what’s the point, honestly? It seems like you will almost always be that chicken who runs with its head off... unless maybe you already made that place you visit a home.