ageha 1day lenses, purikua & substories

I should be doing more for my thesis but instead I am here, and I decided to blog.
Here we go, my procrastination blogging comes again. And I am picking very random topics, too!

It's weird but since I came back to Germany and did not go to my parents place yet but stayed at my apartment dorm in Bonn, it has been so quiet and peaceful and some days I woke up and felt like I was in Tokyo. A year or so ago I felt the same before falling asleep in this apartment.
But now everything is just so peaceful, there is no stress, I am very very slowly working on my thesis peacefully (I've read like 40 pages so far /nervous laughter) and every now and then I met a friend and had just a great time talking. ... Life is so different if you don't live with your parents and do not hear much from them.

My friend and I met casually and I told her to try the wine I bought for the casual dinner we had and she just drank it right out of the bottle haha. No we did not do anything special but hanging out casually, last-minute, that is what I miss a lot in Tokyo and generally in my life!

Enough of Germany and some more of Japan. I tried to not spend too much money but ended up somehow broke just paying for food and transportation and all kind of things I actually needed. Then, one night when my friend and I decided to hang out and another male friend joined, I ended up leaving my coloured contact lenses at that one friend's place because actually he did not have anything to store them because he wore 1day lenses... ah he gave me a pair of his 1day lenses that were actually too wear for my eyes but at least I could see something and then I went to ALTA in Shinjuku to buy myself some 1 day lenses for the rest of my stay in Japan. I had been wanting to try the Ageha 1day lenses for some time and decided for the brown version which claims to make you look ハーフ... half-japanese and half-foreign. Obviously that doesn't work for foreigners. For some reason the people asking me if I am half-japanese/half-something else have increased incredibly though. Lately it happens almost on a daily basis, depending on the make-up and lenses I wear and in which light/scenery they see me... I suppose it is because of my Japanese skills and they want to be nice? I am a bit proud of my Japanese skills though there is still so damn much I don't understand haha. But enough of that.

1,680yen for those babes!

5 pairs... of which I have already used up 2, 1 is not shown because it was and is still in my handbag for the 'just in case'-case that of course did not happen again after that one night haha.

The diameter is sooooo small somehow! Somehow they made me look... well... I don't know, foxy? I thought I looked so vamp-ish but at the same time it suited my natural dark-brown eye-colour very well. When I was wearing my Garula clothes it totally totally totally matched my animal-print, slightly d.i.a.-ish but more classy style! 

The diameter though!! But they were extremely comfortable, I also went clubbing with them.

I will give you some purikura with them because I actually did not have time to take selfies with them on. Yes you read that right. That is how little time I had when I was signed up to that University program.

Small diameter, right? My eyes are sort of big so they sort of do not even look like circle lenses and give me a very natural look. I wish they were just a tiny bit bigger but the fact that I can wear them really long is of course making up for it a bit. I am not sure how much I like these... But judge for yourself whether you think those are worth buying!

Speaking of purikura now. What happened to all the machines?! I really don't like how I look in the first purikura and I actually over-edited most of the pictures (one of my eyes/pupils was bigger than the other in some angles!) because those damn machines made my face so full of shadows... what happened to the machines that make you look Ageha-model like? What happened to super-kawaii light skin purikura? What happened to kira kira stamps? o(；△；)o

What is happening to the Shibuya subculture? I miss the 2010~2011 times! At least they still shoot from above for the full-body shot but everything else is becoming so natural, soon we can take just simple pictures with our smartphones and purikura-like cam apps...

Ah well, besides I am a bit a bit upset guys which might be nothing too new. Lately I think I will never get along with Japanese guys, first breaking up with my boyfriend, then having this trouble with the guy I met last summer... well, he never had time and wanted me to come to Shinjuku at like midnight to meet him! When I didn't, he was upset and called and messaged me everyday to make sure I had time to meet him the week after... only so he could stand me up!
What the hell is wrong with Japanese guys? ((＞д＜)) It's like when you do something to them that isn't the best thing to do (OR THAT SIMPLY IS SOMETHING YOU WANT AND NOT THE GUY WANTS) he pays you back 3 times worse with his narcisstic humiliating behaviour. I don't know how to deal with men. I am attracted to them but they have such downsides I can hardly accept.
I am naturally forgiving but if someone is trying to use me, I can't let that happen. And it seems Japanese men (especially the young, eye-candy type...) are just generally using women?

But I am not their typical gyaru or whatever Japanese girls they are used to, running after them just to get a bit of their attention, I'd rather stay single and go out with my great friends then letting men take advantage of me. Hell, guys aren't worth it. He isn't worth it. He sends me those weird attention seeking mails and messages on LINE, calls me but hangs up after a few seconds because he gets bored. He gets bored right away, you know?Or he at least acts like that. And he has always at least 10 girls (mostly gyaru) commenting on his timeline updates, means he probably talks to 100. Ah, damn those players. I wish I could just show him what kind of good time he is missing. But oh well. Even though I am always too nice and forgiving, my time will come eventually.

Maybe someday I am going to understand guys and find a proper way to react to it. Unlike commonly believed in Japan I try my hardest to realize I am still young with my 23 years (and soon 24), I still have the best time and the best experiences ahead, we all do. Besides that I am having a really time enjoying myself while being single. So with that I hope my readers don't have to deal too much with jerks and are enjoying their time too, haha. Keep yourself away from trouble if you can, lovely readers~

highlights in august (tokyo part 1: yakiniku, partying, zero calorie beer & a vk live)

Finally I am here with a new blog entry (=that is not a sale post. But please have a look at my stuff. I will have more coming new items up for sale soon probably!)
I am sorry it took so long but I was really either too lazy or too busy to get online on my PC while in Japan (I literally just sat in front of it about 2 or 3 times). Also I've been plagued by all my little sicknesses again. It's terrible, but lately, whenever I try to lose weight, I get sick, especially in Japan. I know and research a lot about nutrition and the right foods but the sicknesses still break out ugh. Next time I will do it like my mum does, take ALL the meds for various diseases with me and then I will probably end up not being sick at all (><) I am still fighting off this little cold but that is nothing compared to what I have all been dealing with.
Traveling is stressful, let me tell you! Especially if you are constantly trying to lose weight but that is another story.

Here I finally come and present you the highlights of my holiday. It was a fun trip, as always, and I feel like I have done way more than usually, probably also because I took a lot time 'off' and did not have too many conversation lessons. I sort of feel like I should have watched my expenses more but well, I had a lot of fun with a lot of different people so I cannot complain and I do not regret anything. So anyway, during the first days, I met with several friends and the guy who became my boyfriend (of some sort) in the end. I got extensions in Shinjuku for about 8,000yen and then I quickly got back into the Tokyo life-style of dressing up and doing make-up everyday.

First time yakiniku that year was when I went out with my bf in Shibuya.

It was not very good but we only spent about 1,500yen each so it was sort of alright!

The next day it was my friend Mia's almost-last-day in Tokyo or at least the last day that I saw her (TT) We went out for Yakiniku at a place in Kabukicho that I found online. It was really good but also expensive, damn. We ended up paying almost 5,000yen together and I was not exactly full!

Mia managed to take a nice picture of me though! Kind of a true to life picture haha.

(doesn't happen to me very often that I look the way that I really look in photos)

We went to a host club later where I had THE prettiest host I had seen in ages who actually tried to lure me in. Oh wait, we went to two host clubs and then to Yukihide's bar (which ended up being pretty lame and a disaster so let us forget about that). So I sort of kept in touch with the hosts that I have sort of shimei'd/picked at the end and met one two more times. The other one (the hottie/pretty guy) had a plan to meet me on the last Saturday that I was there on his day off but because there was another guy who I met at atom who also had off that day, I didn't make it to meet both of them (TT) Well, scheduling dates is difficult! There you have the reason why I hardly got online.

Well, so let's skip back to the time after what happened when Mia left for her trip Osaka (and then home to England after that). I finally met Kitai for clubbing but before that I have also seen her at Hachiko while I was waiting for my guy! What a coincidence. We finally got to hang out and I went clubbing in Shibuya for the first time that year. And after that a few more times, again with Kitai and some of her friends. I also met Jasmin and Eriko, two very sweet girls that I would love to see again!

Of course we went to an Izakaya before partying! & I took some pictures of myself because there was a nice lighting. I feel like that sort of smile makes me look like  MiA from mejibray a bit but well! 

Some more blurry pictures before and during partying! Here you can see out outfits actually.

We also took purikura but I will upload those later because I didn't get all of them on my phone. 

The next days I thought I need a rest. The night before I drank the zero calorie & zero alcohol beer and felt horrible after it! I don't know what that is even, zero calorie and zero alcohol beer. I think it must be something terribly chemical?!

I am quite sure I will never drink that again unless I want to harm myself. Anyway, the next day I wanted to meet my bf and I suddenly felt a bit nauseous (I often feel nauseous though, especially when I don't eat enough) but then I also felt a strong pain in my abdomen that was linked to my back! I was a bit scared about it. I talked to one of my Japanese acquaintances who happens to be a doctor about it and he told me that I should drink at least 3 litres of water and go to the hospital if it does not get better. I guess I simply did not drink enough and did not care too much about my health but it is sort of difficult for me when I am busy and want to lose weight and want to control my expenses, ugh. He kept advising me to go to the hospital but since it was obon week, it would be more expensive than usual so I really thought it would be okay on its own. (After a few days I felt better and then I also got antibiotics later.)

Overall I can say that constantly meeting someone stressed me out a lot though. Of course I wanted to meet everyone but my time there was so short that I felt forced to go here and there and that I also felt like I owe something to people sometimes. And it bothered me that all that most Japanese people say is 'shinpai shiteiru' but they don't give a fuck about whether you are sick or not, bf included. Even the guys who were intersted in me wrote me just shit like 'oh so did you bf visit you?' and some others wanted to do 見舞い but wtf does that even mean and how does that look like when I am sick and lazy in bed trying to recover and you are coming to look at me like at a wild animal.

But anyway... during my few days off that I used to relax and drink lots of water, I only went out for a few hours a day for lessons and meeting that friend and then I did my nails with nail stickers (´д｀lll)

Also my Garula coordinate that showed lots of cleavage hahaha. But that is hidden here.

So the next time I went out it was when I still did not feel very well but I though whatever. I am stronger than this sickness and I will not let it ruin my holiday. This time it was with Kitai, Jasmin and Eriko. I was on pain killers but in a good mood because I got out again. I did not drink anything alcoholic during that night, the music was good as always though and there was even someone good-looking in the club that I talked to so it was actually just what I needed and wanted, I had a great time talking with the girls and dancing. This is also a way to relax, right?~

Lovely purikura that we all got because Eriko uploaded them~

I look huge here because the wooden border on the wall has almost the same colour as my cardigan so it looks like my shoulder ends there but it does not omg （ｉДｉ）

This is the first time that I think I'd have actually looked slimmer without my cardigan! haha

I literally do not really remember what was on my schedule for the next day. I wanted to meet Eriko again but we both caught only very little sleep so we did not meet, I started taking anitbiotics the next day (that the acquaintance gave me) and went for 2 more lessons, then in the evening... did nothing, I think? It was a Sunday and I was tired I guess. The next day I met Jasmin and Eriko again, we took some purikura and went to karaoke with another friend of Eriko. After spending some time in Shibuya 109, Eriko (who is from Nagoya) told me about all little wounds she had since she came to Tokyo! So I am not the only one who gets sick here haha. Also she bought flat shoes because her heels just became really uncomfortable after a while. Later I could convince everyone to go to the free live Crazy★Shampoo was hosting in Harajuku. I hate Harajuku but I paid everyone's drink tickets that we had to pay for and we spent about an hour there before Eriko and Jasmin said they wanted to head home. I stayed a bit longer and it was kind of fun. There was some birthday contest event and a lot of talking.

I don't enjoy going out to lives as much as I used to but it was still good and I liked the songs!

So this is all that happened up until August 19th and with that half of my holiday there was already over. I guess I will stop here because this is getting really long. Orginally I wanted to make this only 2 parts but there might be 3 after all. Please look forward to hear about the cat cafe I went to, as well as more party, more beautiful people, more purikura and some more food!~

style change 2008~2013

Hello and happy Pentecost (=Pfingsten, right?) everyone!

Are you enjoying your time off if you have some of that?

As for me, I think I am getting sick again (sudden throatache), try to not overeat while at my parents place and am about to write my term paper which I first of all have to start. Argh. Starting is the hardest part, right?! I have a rather good topic but I have to get myself to read and analyze now.

So during that kind of lazy phase, of course I think of blogging again! haha

Lately I have been overthinking my craze for tutuHA & fernopaa. Even though I do like these brands a lot, I don't really wear them that much on a daily base in Germany. And even in Japan, I think it will be hard for me to wear that on a daily base if I have lessons with my students because they might be a bit freaked out and it won't really look like I am a 'serious' teacher (though there is casual ways to coordinate of course).

And then lately I have been thinking how I've always changed between a more goregous & d.i.a.-ish style to a more rock-ish style with tutuHA, Ghost of Harlem etc. So I thought I could list my whole style change and at the same time ask myself when I felt most comfortable with my fashion and what I would feel comfortable now with. Let's start~

2008 - 2010

Shock! Yes, I used to wear Lolita fashion! There was not many things/prints I liked though... I liked the simple sweet and the romantic kind (Angelic Pretty~) but I quite hated Baby the Stars shine Bright and pretty much any other brand apart from Angelic Pretty and Metamorphose. I was never wearing Lolita as a daily fashion but had some Lolita inspired items (mostly black and white). I sold most of my dresses and items during the end of 2009 before going to Japan.

My hair changed from brown to caramel blonde in 2008! I also got into vk-ish inspired fashion (technically already since 2006) for the most part and cosplay but cosplay was not for too long. For my graduation in 2009 (last pic) I did a proper gyaru attempt with make-up (+lashes) & hair.

Old picture from 2009! It's weird but during that time I put a lot of effort and most of all time and money in my make-up and hair and looks in general. Nowadays people (especially my family) always complain that I take too much time to get ready (50 minutes ~ 1 hour for a good result).
I am very annoyed of that kind of constant nagging and the comments I get in Germany so these days I decide to tone down to very casual style (not what I would wear in Tokyo). It's not much different from the picture but I do think it's more rushed and the coordinates are rarely something I feel 100% good with.

2010 - 2011
 

 

The first two pictures were taken during the time I really liked Lip Service and all pictures in that first row feature Lip Service items. You can tell that Lip Service had a different brand concept than that I was really fond of. From September on though, I started to slowly to from a more basic, classy (?) style towards a more rock-ish style again.

So from September until the end of the year (second row), I mostly wore rocki-ish and vk inspired clothing and tried to adapt my style to that though sometimes I still wore something more feminine on occasion or even tried to combine both. It was also then when I dyed my hair grey. It would fade to a brown-ish grey sometimes and depending on the light (1st pic, second row) but generally I was really fond of that colour. My friend once said I looked like a vk chick with that hair and style. Made my year ❤

2011 - 2012

The beginning of 2011 was probably my highlight of rock & vk-inspired style! Now I don't have my tongue piercing anymore by the way haha. I did enjoy that style a lot and recently I really want to go back to that kind of style! But it also takes a lot of effort and the right fashion. Sometimes simple is better than too much though, if it's about clothes.

In the second half of 2011 I have already toned everything down and I really enjoyed reading the Betty magazine during that time. so I liked to curl my hair. It was one phase where I bought a lot of different brands and got fond of Ghost of Harlem, REAL MA*RS, tutuHA. I also wore Gilfy and some other different brands I usually don't wear. Guess I was trying myself out and combining a lot of clothes differently. During that time I felt less rokku/vk but more girly with a hint of rokku only.

2012 - 2013

 

In 2012 I was first of all mostly sticking to d.i.a. and bought quite a lot of things from them. I was also very open for the brand Garula though but I realized that their pants run really small haha. Generally I got away from MA*RS from here and Ghost of Harlem was not pleasing me as much as before either, even though I still like my old things from them, the things those brands lately produce just aren't my cup of tea. I bought something from fernopaa the first time.

In the second half of 2012 I was still wearing d.i.a. a lot but got slowly more into fernopaa and then again into tutuHA. I didn't like many things from the tutuHA collection anymore though, and with fernopaa I was always unsure with how to combine it. I am not even sure towards which style I was heading there. Since the tutuHA shop staff said the white tutuHA skirt is more of a 'kawaii' like style, I'd almost say I was heading towards kawaii rokku fashion oh my god that sounds terrible D: ?

I also realize that I slowly start to open up towards skirts again. But a plain skirt really doesn't do me.

Right now I am not really into any strict style on a daily basis because as I mentioned earlier, I don't really want to have people staring at me in public and talking to me (believe it or not, it happens even with a toned down style). In Tokyo I feel like I am accepted when I am dressed up like that, maybe even appreciated by some people or maybe even a few others look up to me and that is what I really like. Yet no one makes rude comments or thinks I am promiscuous because of the way I dress... at least they don't show it like that! haha

Yeah, it does always take some time for me to get adapted back to the Tokyo life style, to put effort in my make-up and clothes everyday but it is also fun when there is people who can appreciate it and have a taste in that kind of fashion.

When I come back to Germany, to be honest, I still have that reverse culture shock everytime. I basically live with it! haha That's why I'd rather be plain and ignored in daily life (unless there's a nice event or I really just feel like dressing up or anything).

So for now I am wondering what I will go next for. I slowly feel too old for this kind of fashion but I don't really like the adult brands with their floral designs and their straight plain skirts and pastel colours and ugh. And I don't want to be kawaii, not with 23 anyway D:

 

What style looks does or would look best on me, what do you think? 

And what about you, what fashion do you currently feel most comfortable with?